No more hiding!

Yup ! Its there- the ass, the weight and all that jazz...and yet, it baffles me that I have spent most of my 27 years on this earth hiding it...as if not talking about it is going to make it go away! I have spent so much time hiding my weight and where I was in terms of "numbers" from my family and even from my closest friends for as long as I can remember. And even though I know my friendships with my closest and dearest friends are not about what I look like.... its still a big deal for me to get to a point where I am okay with having a blog and putting it up on the internet!! YAY me !

I think a big part of being able to get here- at this place of ' this is where I am with my weight and working on it so F.U' - is ...well, the fact that I am working on it :)  Its taking time and patience and frustrated days and saying no to things and people I love ...but- I am working on it !

I gave this a lot of thought and this blog isnt really about what I am doing to become skinny and run a marathon and put up a pic holding my huge ass jeans....
    Its more about me being accountable for what I put in my mouth- logging it- and looking at my patterns and hopefully learning from them and changing them !

  I am pretty sure hiding is what has gotten me to the place I am at and therefore because I do everything to the extreme- instead of telling my friends my weight...I am going to tell everyone my weekly weight/what I eat/ when I cry and how I feel about it ;)